From melding

Everything was fine. Nobody was happy.

“How could anyone not fall in love with you?” My husband uttered those words to me when we first opened our marriage up to the idea of polyamory. We were in bed, snuggled up, surfing the web. We had just created our first online dating profiles and found ourselves completely addicted to, and fascinated by,…

Why the mom-guilt should fuck right off

This day has been about the the hard stuff. The single parent bullshit stuff I don’t want to deal with. I woke up sick and exhausted. I’ve got my kids for the next 3 days; which, don’t get me wrong, I am simply thrilled about. However, being this run down is making me feel like a shitty…

How the melding took its toll

I had been filled with hope today – I wrote about it earlier. I was scared as I wrote – I knew somewhere deep – that it wasn’t real. It was a false longing. And later this evening, here’s how I knew I had been right. I began to harass my husband via text about love.…